If it doesn't fit

I tried changing the CF card in my DSLR today, and just about killed it!  The darn card just...wouldn't...go...IN so I tried forcing it in.  Took me a while to realize that as result of my forceful nature, I had bent one of the center pins in the card reader (see right).

My baby!  Costs $200+ to get it fixed by Canon, and up to six weeks to ship it back and forth for repairs -.-  That's nearly half of what I bought it for.

Thankfully, my dad suggested bringing it to a friend's to take a look.  He tried to push the pin upright and accidentally broke it off in the process.  I thought the camera was done for, and not worth $200+ to get it fixed :(  In one last attempt, we tried it out in spite of the missing pin.

Behold, a miracle!  It works again! 

If it doesn't fit, don't force it.  Lesson learned.

Seaside

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I thought about checking into a motel on the drive down today.  The weather was perfect, the sun a golden orb of light, and traffic was atrocious.  How nice it would be, to watch dusk melt into night from the window of some worn, seaside motel room.  To sink into the cool sheets and listen to the sound of my breathing.  How free I'd be.

Some days I just want to be alone, away from the world and all the expectations that come with it.  It's a constant struggle, wanting to get away from the hustle and bustle of the everyday, while feeling incredibly lonely at times.

Lonely, that is.  Not alone.

I am falling, and He is picking me up, and we are learning together, all the same.

True Love Waits

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Now Isaac went out to the field one evening to meditate, and as he looked up, he saw camels approaching.  Rebekah also looked up and saw Isaac.  She got down from her camel and asked the servant, "Who is that man in the field coming to meet us?" 

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Love.  What a twisted idea the world has of you, what I've had of you.
But the light's seeping back, and it feels good to be back at the start.

I'm giving You my dreams, I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride, for the promise of new life 

Video Blog #1

Day, you've tired me out.

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Was the last to finish setting up during training today, slipped and fell into the stream at the reserve, and skinned a knee falling off my bike in the canyon.  Hahaha. 

Haven't felt this alive in a long time.

2 AM

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This is one of my best friends, Kat.  She let me dress her up and pose her in a prickly field on a chilly day earlier this year.  I'm blessed to have such beautiful friends who are so gracious in letting me use them as my subjects!

I've found in the past that there are few people in life with whom you can easily pick up the conversation where it left off, whether it be days or years.  Others fade in and out, but those few are worth keeping around.  You guys know who you are.  I miss you all like mad.

Well, it's official!  The last box has been unpacked, so I'm officially moved back home.  God has been blessing me abundantly with a smooth transition (praying that the post-college blues won't hit) and also by providing me with a job!  I don't deserve it, but His grace is unending, not to mention He has impeccable timing.

Recently, I found myself trying to predict the ways in which God was going to work next in my life.  I've realized that, well 1. He's not predictable, and also, 2. I'm an idiot for ever thinking that in the first place.  It's a humbling process, seeing that He's working in His own way, His own timing, not in mine.

Life's not an easy ride when you're gripping the reins too tightly.  So loosen up, let go, and hand them over to Someone who knows how to navigate.  You won't know till you try!